My husband died by suicide on October 14, 2014. I still remember every detail as if it were yesterday.
It’s now been 6 years ago, and I believe I am truly on my best path now. But it’s been a long road. I think I may have taken the long way around, but I finally feel like I have arrived, on the other side. Don’t get me wrong there is still bad moments, hours, days and, well not so much weeks anymore.
The first few days following his death I was in shock. There were so many decisions to be made, I was in “DECISION FATIGUE” for sure. This is something we will discuss in my program.
After the shock wore off, and that’s when INDECISION came into play. And OVERWHELM was the constant state I was in. I was scared of everything; and my feelings were constantly being hurt by people that were just trying to help. I would be upset if my friends didn’t invite me to an outing but would be appalled when they did invite me. No one could do anything right by me. Then I ISOLATED myself (we all know how good that feels), I ran away from everything I thought was hurting me; friends, memories, the house...
I started therapy and that definitely got me to a point where I could breathe again. But I still believed my “BEST” life was behind me. I still didn’t have a positive outlook on my future.
After a few years of just getting by and going through the motions, but still feeling DISCONNECTED, I started searching for help. Life had to be better than this. I started reading books on grief and finding some hope that just maybe I could have a better life. Then I found LIFE COACHING, and what a difference it’s made in my life. I now have found purpose and fulfilment. That is what I want to help you do too. I want you to see that your best life isn’t behind you. I want you to know you can still have purpose, fulfillment, and connections again.